Steady feet don't fail me now

2012-01-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

How do I choose between my head and heart?
How do I choose between obligation and love?
How do I choose between debt and desire?
How do I?

2012-01-19T18:36:00.001+08:00

How do you find trust that was once charred?

2012-01-05T00:12:00.004+08:00

This is what you get when you expect too much. Should've known better than to trust meaningless words. Once again, I've disappointed myself. Can't believe I am about to cry myself to sleep as I turn 18.

2011-12-14T02:02:00.001+08:00

I think a lot that wasn't said had been spoken today. It's difficult because I've kept it for so long and it's sad too. Also, I'm pretty uncertain about where do I go about from here. Truth be told, this has affected me way worse than I would expect. I can just foresee myself being very skeptical about anyone and everyone. I can already feel the negative vibes. Ya Rabb, Why am I not strong enough to sustain positivity? I think the root of the problem is really me. I have long accepted the fact that I have issues and people cannot tolerate them. I'm working on them, though. Dear God, please ease the paths of my peers. Bless them with lots of happiness and greatness, more than you do me. Forgive me, forgive those who love me and forgive those who detest me.

“Hate no one, no matter how much they’ve wronged you. Live humbly, no matter how wealthy you become. Think positively, no matter how hard life is. Give much, even if you’ve been given little. Keep in touch with the ones who have forgotten you, and forgive who has wronged you, & do not stop praying for the best for those you love.”

—Sayyidina Ali bin Abi Talib (Radi allahu anhu)

2011-12-05T22:11:00.001+08:00

I hope you know that I'm always striving to improve. I will try my hardest. I will built greatness in me like how I want greatness in you. We will try our best and put in much effort & we will help each other become better Muslims, for the sake of Allah. Come what may because ultimately Allah knows best and we'll accept it all. Thank you, for always believing in me. I hope you never give up on me. I have faith in Allah and I have faith in us :)

2011-12-03T11:48:00.001+08:00

SET IT FREE. SET ME FREE.

I am not an option.
I am not a second choice.
I am not your rebound.
I am not a replacement.

I am worth so much more and I am sorry you fail to see that.

2011-11-25T19:25:00.001+08:00

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

2011-11-19T14:24:00.001+08:00

What is happening? Everything is falling apart. I'm messing up. I want to run away but I don't know where to go. I want to cry but I don't know to whom. I know very well that my existence brings more problems than it does good. I'm sorry I keep disappointing you both. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm sorry that I am flawed. I don't know what to do now. I feel so alone in this. I can't figure out if God hates me too. I honestly tried. I'm sorry I didn't try hard enough. I failed.

2011-11-18T08:42:00.001+08:00

Come as you are,

As you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy.
Take your time,

Hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late.
Take a rest,

As a friend,

As an old memoria
Memoria

Memoria

Memoria

Come dowsed in mud,

Soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend,

as a friend,

As an old memoria
Memoria

Memoria

Memoria

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun

No I don't have a gun

Memoria

Memoria

Memoria

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun

Memoria

2011-11-13T00:59:00.001+08:00

LAUGH

If there's anything the fun bunch have thought me throughout these past few months, it's really about taking things lightly! I am truly satisfied with the positive transformation. Guess what, I hardly get the "please smile more"now a days! It's really something! Now I hear a lot of "You smile a lot!" "You're so cheery!" Oh well, who said ti didn't know how to laugh and take it easy! Its all good, people. All GOOOOD~ :D

2011-11-10T20:47:00.001+08:00

GRATITUDE

Thank you Allah for this opportunity. I am truly grateful. May you continue to ease the paths of my fellow friends, all of them. Guide us, protect us and forgive us. I am learning everyday.

Aku serba tiada

Aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba, aku hilang dari kewujudan.

2011-11-07T23:53:00.001+08:00

Our deen is so beautiful. Everyday I am progressively learning new things. I hope that this continues and Allah grants me endless opportunities to better myself as a Muslim. May this 'Eid bring great meaning to everyone. It's time to supplicate brothers and sisters. Allah loves us all, let us not forget that :)

Barakallah hu fee kum

2011-11-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

Allah SWT always has 3 replies to our prayers;

1. Yes
2. Yes, but not now
3. I have a better plan for you

There is never a NO

keep the faith, everybody :)

2011-10-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

It's perfectly fine to be upset, ti. Take it all in and then pick yourself up. Be a better you :)

2011-10-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

It's horrible when things are going so well and something bad breaks the status quo. I just really want to crawl in bed and cry now. Everything's crumbling.

2011-10-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

Keep going, ti. Be certain and not look back. Allah is fair and He is Just. Patience is genius.

2011-10-24T21:44:00.001+08:00

Focus, ti. FOCUS.

2011-10-23T21:05:00.001+08:00

I am very confused. Don't know what you want, I really can't figure out.

2011-10-22T22:42:00.001+08:00

BEAUTY

In His eyes, she was beautiful. He understood all that she did in order to attract His attention. He knew that she only thought of impressing Him, that she had taken His preferences as her own and that she was trying in every possible way to surrender to them. He noticed every tiny detail that she so carefully arranged in her appearance for His sake alone. He kept account of her progress and He appreciated every one of her struggles. He admitted that still had a long way to go, but He thought her sincerity was endearing. No, she wasn’t perfect on the outside and definitely far from perfect on the inside, but all that she was doing made her, in His eyes, beautiful.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

…At least, that’s what she had heard. She had decided that Allah, God, was her Beholder. She then realized that she could not define beauty herself or let anyone else define it for her. She had come to the conclusion that He was the only One to please, so she embarked on the journey of discovering what beauty was in His eyes. As she learned day by day, she practiced day by day. She slowly started to beautify herself according to His standards.

In His eyes, it was beautiful that she should cover her hair. So she took the first and biggest step. She stopped showing her hair in public and starting wearing the hijab, headscarf, even though she feared how those around her would react to such a drastic change.

In His eyes, it was beautiful that she should dress to hide the shape of her body. She started to wear looser clothing, even though it hung awkwardly from her petite frame. She switched to wearing skirts and dresses, even though she wanted to go on a hike at the beach or had to slosh to her classes around campus in the pouring rain.

In His eyes, it was beautiful that her face should appear in its natural state. She stopped wearing make-up altogether, even if it was only for a few hours on Eid or for her cousin’s wedding. She stopped using the powders, liquids, and pencils, even though she could mask her imperfections and bring out her features. She also stopped plucking her eyebrows, even though they were a little misshapen and slightly unkempt and even though almost everyone else continued to shape theirs.

At every step of her journey she was tested in her commitment to pursuing the standards of His beauty alone, and not becoming distracted in pursuing the other standards of beauty that were around her. But the further she kept going, the more she heard the others. The others had their own definitions of beauty, and hardly any of their definitions matched His.

She had already defeated her desires and placed His definition of beauty over her own, but it was overcoming the opinions of the others, those who saw her and interacted with her, that was most difficult. Their thoughts would turn into words, and sometimes the words would get too loud to ignore.

They had a lot to say. Some said that she should be free to express her beauty the way she wanted to and not how she was told to. Some said that she looked strange and would never fit in. Some said that if she didn’t look like the girls in the magazines, she wasn’t worth much. Some said that she was taking covering too far, that they were happy she was wearing the scarf but she should stop fussing with all of the “extra” things she was doing. Some said she would look better with some make-up on, that if it was just a little and it was no big deal. Some said she would never get married, dressing so conservatively and looking so plain. Some said that what’s inside is all that matters, and that she didn’t need to be modest or care what was on the outside.

Some of what they had to say would hurt. Some of them came from strangers, some from her friends, and some even from her family. Deep down she knew that what He thought was beautiful meant more to her than what they thought was beautiful. She had to detach from them completely. She knew what true beauty was and that she wanted to appear beautiful in His eyes, not in theirs.

She learned. She learned to cope with what the others had to say. She learned how to accept complements and how to deflect negative comments. She learned that she is responsible for maintaining her self-confidence and upholding her own respect. She learned to stop caring about what the others would think because she could never impress everyone and would get lost if she tried. She learned that she could not fully understand the wisdom behind what He thought was beautiful, but that she would comply fully to His standards. She learned that He is enough for her and that all of her strength comes from Him. She learned to love herself for wanting to be beautiful in His eyes and she learned to love herself because she kept trying. She learned that becoming beautiful is a process that never ends and to never stop fighting to achieve the excellence that she craved. She learned that outside beauty was only part of the beauty that He wanted from her. She learned to stop judging others around her, both their external and internal appearances. She learned that it wasn’t wrong to care about how she looked, as long as she knew Who she was trying to impress. She learned that true beauty exists only in His eyes.

She prays that everyone will want to take His beauty as their own. She prays that she will be steadfast in achieving His beauty. She prays that His beauty comes to her not only on the outside, but also on the inside. She prays that He will send her a man who sees and loves His beauty in her. She prays that she will die with His beauty. She prays that she will be brought back to life and live forever with His beauty. She prays that she is beautiful, in His eyes.

الحمد لله اللهم كما أحسنت خلقي فاحسن خلقي

Oh Allah as you have beautified my outward appearance, beautify my inner appearance (character).

(Du’a when looking in the mirror)

2011-10-21T19:06:00.002+08:00

This post I dedicate to myself, :D

Dear Ti,

Firstly, please say your thanks to the Almighty (Alhamdulillah Syukran Ya Allah) for blessing you with so much in life that you actually have very little rights to complain about anything; but granted, you are human- ordinary. Therefore optimise this little opportunity you have to spill! However I should remind you not to make this a habit!

Basically this is the real world you live in. Sad, but so true. There are people out there who cannot see you happy. They hurt you and then leave you to struggle. After regaining and suiting yourself happily back in life, they come back and do nasty little things to further shatter your heart and dreams. When this happens, do not resent for Rasulullah(pbuh) has mentioned in his last sermon:

Bismillahirahmannirahim
"Hurt no one so that no one may hurt you. Remember that you will indeed meet your Lord, and that he will indeed reckon your deeds"

So dearest Ti, keep calm and make doa- for the ones you love, the ones you dislike, the ones out to hurt you. Make Doa. May Allah open their hearts. Amin.

2011-10-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

COMPASSION

Like many, I was truly disturbed by the inhumane and ghastly video of 2 year old Yue Yue being run down by 2 vehicles- of course the perverse part of it all was when no one had it in their sane minds to stop and help. Exactly why did it not trigger those very much alert and aware minds to help? It wasn't one nor was it two passer bys- there were 18. So is this a community problem? Is this is a social problem? So is this evident enough to prove that in today's world, humanity, ethics and morals are not primary? So whatever happened to compassion, I ponder. Have we forgotten our prophet's teachings?

“No man is a true believer unless he desireth for his brother that which he desireth for himself”

Rasulullah(pbuh)

2011-10-17T21:08:00.003+08:00

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone,

that the only next possible step to do is to stop.

Leave them alone.

Walk away.

It's not like you're giving up, and shouldn't try.

It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation.

What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

So which one are you? The one giving or at the receiving end?

2011-10-16T22:41:00.001+08:00

A new journey tomorrow. I am ready :D

2011-10-14T23:18:00.003+08:00

A reminder; For you and for me :)

Sometimes people do things which hurt or offend us. And we - because of our black, hardened hearts - can't find it within ourselves to forgive them. We want them to suffer, just like they made us suffer. But your Prophet, your Messenger, Rasulullah , he wants to see that they should not suffer. On the Day of Qiyamah, his concern for his Ummah will be immense. The thought that any of his followers should be cast into the Fire causes him great anguish and distresses him greatly. His cry on that Day will be "My Ummah, my Ummah!" It was because this, because of his supreme concern for his Ummatis, that he would stand in prayer at night for so long that his feet would swell and bleed. So if you find yourself bearing a grudge against someone because of the sins they've committed against you, and cannot manage to forgive them out of your own, then at least do so for the sake of Rasulullah . Forgive them, so that he will be happy and smiling on that Day. Forgive them, so that he will not be grieved and sorrowful at their being punished. Think about it: if we truly are of those who claim to love him, then do we really want to be the cause of any grief befalling our beloved, Sayyiduna Rasulullah ?

You question how Im so calm now? How acceptance has become second nature for me? I will tell you my friend(:

Every night before I sleep, I forgive every and anyone who has hurt me for the day, the previous day, the week before, the month before. & I remorsefully and humbly ask Allah to soften their hearts to forgive me too. So much tears, but I promise you it is worth everything and you stand to lose absolutely nothing. You will feel so much better. It's truly about letting go.

2011-10-13T19:56:00.004+08:00

How adorable is this?
So sometimes we wake up in the morning feeling ugly, awful and extremely insecure. I know because I am terribly guilty of that :/ I suppose we all just have to know that nobody is perfect therefore stop, take a breather and truly embrace yourselves. We should all love ourselves more! There are many things I don't have;

I do not have a slim figure
I do not have a height deemed acceptable
I do not have long, silky and straight hair (:
I cannot fit into any jeans I pick up at the stores
I cannot wear flattering dresses
I do not have wide intriguing eyes
I do not have full lips or pretty hands/nails
I do not have fair complexion

The list could go on I give you my assurance on that but what I know is, that aside, I have;

I have a mind so opinionated
I have a voice so loud it reaches your hearts
I have a funny laugh
I have positive vibes
I have esteem
I have supportive family and awesome friends (God bless their hearts)
I have joy, love and motivation
I have faith
I have God

& truly, that is all I need :D I think it's time we all stop being superficial and GROW UP!
Oh yes, ladies, there is always gonna be that one who is girl prettier, smarter, sweeter than you; you just have to find that one guy who doesn't care! If one cannot appreciate you, another would. Dont let anybody make you feel ugly, you are beautiful! Believe in that ♥

2011-10-12T21:27:00.001+08:00

If you ever feel that things are not going your way;

Keep the faith because better things are coming.

InsyaAllah (:

2011-10-10T23:33:00.002+08:00

A LOVE LETTER FROM A MUSLIM MAN TO A GIRL hE LOVES

“If you love me, don’t confess your love to me, this won’t please me and will keep me away! love words don’t attract me. If you love me, wait for me and I will knock on your door in the right time. Don’t give me privileges which I don’t deserve. Keep me away from you, and I will approach you. If you approach me, I will stay away from you. Don’t love me, for I want you ignorant in love. I want to teach you love when the right time come and you will be my Halal, only when we are joined together under our Creator’s satisfaction.

Don’t tell me what you feel, don’t give me from your time, don’t push me to lose you. I am a man who won’t accept to see the one he loves committing sins or to live a forbidden love behind the back of her family. I don’t want her to feel guilty and don’t want her heart to suffer.

Put limits to me that I won’t cross, kill me inside you so I won’t grow to kill you. Preserve what is beautiful inside you. I want you innocent, chaste, pure. I want you dear, not easy. And then, Only then, I will face everything and will be ready to go through difficulties to get you

How could I be a faithful man to you when I try to break your chastity? How would I be faithful to you if I push you to betray your family? How could I trust a love which grew under Allah’s wrath ? To love you means to protect you, to preserve you not to kill what is beautiful in you.

Don’t be easy because then, I may not value you. Don’t love me now, so I won’t hate you! My heart wants you and doesn’t want to lose you. I don’t want you to be just a passing fancy to me, I want you a wife, a lover, the mother of my children, I want you to be the one I will spend my whole life with.”

I am so moved by this I cried. I don't think I am special or worthy enough to deserve a love so pure like this one but Ya Allah, protect what is in my heart. You know best.

2011-10-10T02:11:00.003+08:00

J O Y

Sometimes I think I'm most carefree when I'm with you because you make me genuinely happy. & When I'm genuinely happy, it resonates. Everybody can see when I'm most happy because it's just written all over my face. You make me happy and you see great things in me. You make me feel like Im not ugly, I'm just different. just.different

I said happy 4 times, okay now 5. I truly am and you should really believe it.

2011-10-05T11:06:00.000+08:00

“‎Start a day with a something sweet and end the day with something sweeter"
"Everybody has a past.Everybody lives a present.And Everybody deserves a future.”
― HLovate, aA+bB

You know the book is awesome when I spent effectively close to 12 hours finishing it (and I am a slow malay-novel-slug) It may have been 12 hours, it was only 495 pages but somewhere along the laughing, crying, smirking and anger, I saw myself in the book. The point of realisation was surreal. There's just so much that I take away from this book. Realising how I've skipped the cycle of grief, how fast I grew to accept, I now know it isn't right. I also know that crying doesn't mean you're weak. I think that sometimes you just have to let it out. & sometimes when you're so in control of life, you forget there is a higher devine who has carved this path for you way before time. The most important thing is that things happen for a steady reason. Who are we to question the reasons? Allah knows best. Allah loves all of his creation, He protects. There's so much more I've learnt but I feel the rest is best reflected upon solo ;) Thank you very much Nurul Itriah for introducing this book to me. It'll definitely help me. I think I would know where to go from here. This is an exceptionally long post, I think I'm excited to share that's why! So I will end of my post with something I will remember most from the book and also from the holy book, Al-Quranul Karim (:

Sesungguhnya Allah, hanya pada sisi-Nya sajalah

pengetahuan tentang hari Kiamat; dan Dialah yang

menurunkan hujan, dan mengetahui apa yang ada

dalam rahim. Dan tiada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui

(dengan pasti) apa yang akan diuasahakannya besok.

Dan tiada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui di bumi mana

dia akan mati. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui

lagi Maha Mengenal

(Luqman:34)

2011-10-04T22:59:00.003+08:00

Seems like much fun

Until you lose what you have won

Awesome day spent with Itriah. I still feel so helpless because I cannot really help you content-wise but I really hope my company and motivation has spurred you to do your best for the upcoming exams! You will do well because you have tried your hardest. No matter what the outcome, you know there's still a fine bunch of people who will always be there, rooting for you! Also, thanks for the book! Can't seem to put it down (; Counting the hours before I see Nurul tomorrow. We'll have a blast because promo-s are clearly OVER! Am truly blessed and thankful for wonderful bestfriends ❤

"I expected therefore I am disappointed"

I've learnt. The trick now is, I no longer expect :D

2011-10-03T16:27:00.000+08:00

C O U R A G E

It's all about seizing the moment and time. The funny thing about life is that there isn't guarantee. You're here today but perhaps not anymore tomorrow. Don't take such a long time deciding something good. A good deed warrants urgency. The only time I should be contemplating is when intending to do something unpleasant. It will be a big step but if it's something righteous then I am surely protected. Pray for me, InsyaAllah.

2011-10-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

F A I T H

It feels like the layer of ignorance or deceit has been lifted completely. Thank you Allah for clearly showing me what is worth and what isn't. You have guided me in making decisions wisely and I will try my best to keep up. Everything is clear and calm as water. I am grateful. I pray you take away all hatred, boastful, inhumane and crudeness out of my heart and replace them with serenity, patience, humility and love.

It was extremely shallow to think that I would plan and chase for a closure. Little did I know, Allah created one for me yesterday and truly, that was all I needed.

2011-10-01T18:54:00.001+08:00

Tubna Ya Allah; I repent, Ya Allah

I've strayed too far away from you, Ya Allah.
I have been too caught up with life and I have forgotten about the hereafter.
I have exhausted too many tears on your creation but I have not exhausted close enough for you, my creator.
I have been busy fixing things beyond my capabilities and I have failed to acknowledge your limitless abilities.
I am at the weakest point in life right now, Ya Allah.
Please forgive me, forgive all my sins.
Don't stray me in this journey called Dunya and help me reach my destination, Jannah.

2011-09-29T23:26:00.001+08:00

It is really times like these where I feel it's a legit obligation to be there for friends. Some may argue that we should not exhaust time and effort for friends because usually, it isn't reciprocated. Sure, I'm selective when it comes to being a confidant but I feel what's most important is that we do it sincerely. I love my friends and am blessed to have them.

I'll carry you when you need a friend,
You'll find my footprints in the sand

2011-09-25T22:59:00.001+08:00

B A L A N C E

I am blessed and happy. Thank you Allah for the great people in my life. Truly, I am encouraged and grateful. Ease their paths in life and grant them stability like how you have granted me. Amin.

healing

2011-09-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

It is amazing how you could feel so pleased at one moment and so hopeless at the very next. I question the root of this instability. Is it the life script I have set my mind to? So I've learnt amazing things about myself these past 3 days. It was great awareness because I now know what kind of qualities, attributes, mindset and perceptions I possess. Not only did I grow more aware about me, I've come to terms about who I am, also why I am of a certain way. & so I am not perfect nor am I trying to be. I just want to be the best I can and right now it starts by letting go of the past and lots of forgiveness. I must forgive. I should forgive. In fact, I will forgive. I want to be able to pick myself up again and to improve, become a better person. I also know that I cannot possibly do it alone. So therefore I wish for somebody to always be there with me, supporting me, encouraging me and motivating me. For I am a very weak person- That is something I've learnt about myself and something I have already come to terms with.

A mistake is no longer a mistake the second time. It becomes a choice.

At night when the stars light up my room

2011-09-18T21:50:00.001+08:00

I wish you could see how happy I am now. How much I've grown. It was a little disappointing that you didn't show up because I honestly thought that it would have been a proper closure. I was sincerely looking forward to it. Perhaps you weren't ready? But why not? You, out of us both would've been the most prepared simply because you initiated it. Doesn't it work that way? Pardon my naive but genuine thoughts. I am truly sad that I would have to await for another opportunity to come by before we could exhibit neutrality. More importantly, to show everybody else how the past has long been forgotten.

You know, I always thought I wouldn't stop crying and that I would never get over it. That was so foolish of me. I am so thankful now for all the important things in life- my family, friends, people who love me. I've grown to be more patient, selfless and positive. I've healed but that bugging voice at the back of my head still lingers because we haven't come to consensus. I hope and pray that god opens up your heart soon because it is not fair that you're holding this back. I just want you to know that Im eagerly waiting for a proper end to this because I honestly cannot be anymore patient to start the next chapter of my life. Anytime now, when you're ready I'd be waiting.

Simply because you were the one who said "you'll be fine without me"
Never thought I'd say this but you're right.

Dear Nurul

2011-09-18T21:13:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU NURUL, I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU <3

2011-04-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

I've grown over th years. I've been dormant and haven't written for a significantly long period of time thus th natural state of being awkward at expressing myself. Pardon my unskillful attempts.

There's probably a handful of reasons why I've started blogging again. Perhaps because my vocation as a Mass Communications student makes me feel th need to practice writing again. Also maybe because at this phase in life I'm more likely to express my thoughts and perceptions so blogging is quite and avenue! And more recently life's been tough and my friends, well they're busy adjusting to a more hectic lifestyle. Simply said, I am in need of a confidant. Well, blogging's healthy (:

I'm still balancing or juggling if you would, all that's happening. Tears and sorrows are inevitable but Im capable because I am Tiara and I am superhuman.

Life's tough, I'm partaking feelings of both joy and despair

2010-05-13T08:30:00.000+08:00

Spread th word (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QrMA5h-n_s

2010-03-23T18:53:00.002+08:00

Red Bull and Pumpkin Seeds, my remedy.

For th record, yes I am learning to suck it up.
I'd have to make a choice and as my companions would know very well, I rarely make intelligent ones so, I pray hard God spares me this time a round.
Mother warned me yesterday if I don't swallow my pride he's going to tell me he has had enough.
Sadly, I'd have to face mother today and tell her, she was never wrong.

It's just emotions taking me over? No, it's just darn life.

2010-03-22T18:42:00.002+08:00

Is this the last straw?
It probably is.
Well, take it that perhaps, I've prioritised well and this is what's best for me and, for you too.
She's making everything so complexed. I don't like quarelling. Tiffs and conflicts are just not healthy.
Today I ponder for a little while, if it's all worth?

Dear God, a little clarity, peace and serenity would you please grant me.

2010-03-20T23:17:00.004+08:00

HELLO,ANONYMOUS HERE.

yes yes,tiara has tons and tons of her homework to finish.

so here i am blogging for her. GRRR.

Anyway,i'm sure all of us here can quite agree that LADY GAGA is lovable.

Like,seriously.

HAHAHAHA.

GO LADY GAGA!

Okay,byebye!

2010-03-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

Everything's progressing well so far, Alhamdulillah. I'm grateful and content.
My blog has been dormant, pretty obvious. Nonetheless, I would try to update now and then (:
I think this number's amazing > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FmLMcKonaM

2010-02-14T17:30:00.002+08:00

A sudden and surprising wave of curiosity overwhelmed me not too long ago. I've been site-hopping. They're absurd, the sites I've been surfing. From ACJC's to VJC's even to MJC and soon I found myself browsing through pictures of the Ivy League schools. The exterior of Yale seems to recur persistently in my thoughts. I wonder, how far am I willing to work.

2010-01-29T23:01:00.002+08:00

Had a long and enlightening chat with Mr Tan today.
What are the odds huh?
I mean, from the start I knew what my goal was. It was so clear.

But I've learnt today that Ideally, it seems perfect but realistically, it's just impossible.

2010-01-28T19:35:00.003+08:00

I say a little prayer for you(:

My short posts are starting to annoy you, no?
Hahaha,
life is wonderful...

2010-01-27T18:17:00.003+08:00

I Dare You To Move

For I've always envisioned th unpredictable.
A paradox don't you think?

At times like these do I pray I'd make a prudent choice.

2010-01-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

A change of polarities.

Hysteria? No, just in love(:

2010-01-24T17:21:00.001+08:00

Love is kind.

2010-01-19T18:34:00.003+08:00

Because I've donned the forgiving veil for far too long.

Differentiated, and clearly woken up.
I must thank Darr for guiding me along.
I've submitted to the ordeal.
& on top of that, I've matured of the hours.
Of course I teared, who wouldn't.
But at least I now know who my friends are, what jackasses are like.
So, I've lost somebody I once had faith in.
But that wouldn't obstruct me from lovingmy true companions even more.
I'm happy things turned out this way, honestly.
I hope life treats you well though.

"I thought you listened; little did I know, hearing was all you ever did."

2010-01-18T18:31:00.001+08:00

You owe me a bloody good friend.
Asshole.

2010-01-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

Challenged.

It's not that I didn't try. I tried. You simply resist so greatly. It's excruciatingly tiring.
Cher said "If you value the friendship, then keep trying and don't stop. And if you think it's not worth, give up. Just give up."

I sought much serenity so it's time to decide,
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?

2010-01-10T18:59:00.004+08:00

Would you want to make a guess how terrifed I am about the 'O's now?
Well let me just briefly describe the condition of the study room.
I've got meesy syllabus(highlighted, underlined, marked, scribbled, erased, highlighted again etc etc) all over the table. My Timetable for TYS -Sciences and Mathematics. Timetable for Content Reading- Humas. Srew it, I'm so blardy scared. A latest addition, I've got this table
->http://sis.moe.gov.sg/schinfo/html/JCAggregateRange.htm printed with an extra extra huge font. It's up on the wall. God, I'm scared.

2009-12-29T15:44:00.003+08:00

I miss my tresses awfully.

Nurul's birthday present. *BIG GRIND*

I have in mind what I want to get Nurlf and what I want to do on her birthday.

Every year, I intend to make it a surprise, but I just can't shut my trap can I.

I'm super duper excited.

Nurul! we're gonna be 16 in less than a weeks time.

Can you believe it? Because I cannot.

It seemed like only yesterday I was playing Captain's Ball with you on Pioneer Primary School's Basketball Court. Do you remember?

God, time flies~

2009-12-21T22:27:00.003+08:00

All that glitters isn't gold; ain't it that way?

Bangkok was thrilling. So much to do, so little time. If I had another opportunity, I wouldn't turn down Bangkok. Cheap and Fab. If you're an avid shopper then it's your haven(;

What's gotten in to you darn it? He's a sickening toad. You cannot see that can you? Wake up girl, stop jeopardising yourself.

2009-12-12T16:50:00.003+08:00

Relics; survived and cherished.

I changed my blog song.
It's absurdly sweet. I instantaneously fell in love with this number.
So, somebody please be aware and learn the chords and tabs for this one.
Can can?
(:

I've discovered!
I want a J.A. Rule and Ashanti kinda love.
Go figure? Like Nurul would say.
Haha.

Until then, life's pretty much a thrill now!

2009-12-01T13:06:00.003+08:00

I'm going to be "jiwang-karat" today and listen to Kci & Jojo, Aerosmith and All 4 One because I'm extremely upset. No, I haven't been dumped. I lost my USB cable and Memory card reader all at once. I'm screeeewwwweeeddd.

$#^%!*&

2009-11-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

Polarities.

If it aren't us humans who diliberately surpass all forms of goodness with much greed and envy at heart's will. If it isn't you and me.

How do I know if there's still some sort of friendship among us?
Do I ask?
Is it okay to ask?
Or do I just wait for you to say something?
Then again, I've been waiting for quite a while now.
I don't know if I should question your other companions.
Will I then start a commotion?
I don't know if you're mad at me?
Or if you've just lost it all?
Or sometimes I predict it's just a passing phase we all go through, you know, like find new circle of friends.
Is it like that CS?
Or is it something else?
I don't know if you don't tell me.
Am I supposed to question?
Or perhaps are you hoping I won't?
This sucks big time,
I miss my old friends.
A whole lot.

2009-11-24T18:58:00.003+08:00

You know that fortunes favour the brave.

I miss Nurlf.
I hope she's spending a hell lot of supreme fun in Shanghai.
2012 with W.A. today.
Coolio~
Halfway through and we(Nurul Itriah and I) were laughing; not that there was much comical elements to the movie.
We kinda pictured Mehn as the monk.
Hillarious!

Okay okay, Regional's on the 8th and 9th.
I'm a nerve wreck.
Shitxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxxzxzx
Im hoping for the best though!!

2009-11-19T22:36:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry, I can't help it but;
Why do you keep leaving beautiful girls for fuglier ones?
WTH's wrong with you.
God am I glad I was quick enough.

2009-11-18T21:55:00.002+08:00

I simply dread super long taxi rides to and fro Pasir Ris.
My butt aches, and on top of that we all suffer pins and needles like nobody's bizac.
But it's okay.
In Darr's words "My father pay whaaaat, nvm. Call Merc also caaan"
Long day tmr.
But I'll pull through, because I rock(;

I know these few weeks aren't going to be easy but, I know we're going to turn out just fine, okay(; This one's for you, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUWjUFaGC38

2009-11-16T14:28:00.002+08:00

I picture you playing your guitar to many love numbers.
Oh, wth.
Baby, let's go jam!

2009-11-15T21:42:00.002+08:00

1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves
Countin'

East Coast Park today.
Uncle Fazil had planned a surprise birthday picnic for Cik Along and so we decided to join in the fun. Uncle Fazil's really sweet. Haha. I bet Cik Along loves him like crazy. Anyways, I enjoyed building sandcastles with Faidhi and Faiyaz. Adorable(:

2009-11-05T15:23:00.003+08:00

Betray.

Change is the only constant. Or so they say.
I'm trying, very hard.
So stop being an arsehole and don't push it.

2009-11-03T18:38:00.002+08:00

An affinity, somewhat.

I don't mean to be arrogant. It's not that I disregard your presence. I just don't like their dirty looks and their mean spits. I apologise. You've been great friends.

2009-11-02T19:00:00.002+08:00

Baby Talk.

SS Mass Lecture with 3-4 is entertaining. This shall continue for a couple of days. INTERESTING!

After lessons, which annoyingly ended at 3.30, we headed out to KFC for lunch. My favourites and me had tonnes of fun. Hoooorrraaayyys o.O
After that, we bus-ed to love's.
Played a lot with baby Musyaraf.
JJ video-ed him eating.
He was entertaining, goodness. Hahaha.
Operation V tmr, JJ?
I say, let's go!

2009-11-01T15:40:00.003+08:00

Contented.

Amazing. Thank you X-Factors for making the camp a brilliant one. It was truly a success. We pulled through well. It was beyond lovely.

Thank you camp commandants, you guys were great
Thank you Instructors, you guys were brilliant.
Thank you Ahoyset, for being extremely positive throughout the entire camp.
Thank you sec 1s for allowing yourselves to bond.

It was memorable, I hope you guys enjoyed it.

Dearest Wei Kang and Septimo,
I am super proud of the both of you. Not only have you impressed us with your passion, you have also proven yourselves to be inspiring leaders; Always motivating your batchmates. I know that there are continuous obstacles awaiting you but I am so confident that Ahoyset will pull through well, as an entire team. Success= Teamwork+ Everyone

2009-10-26T20:47:00.002+08:00

Haha!

Today was cooooolllliiiioooo~
Thank you peeps for making my day.
FICO was idiotic but it was fruitful. Why Why Why?
Because I finished Deathly Hollows!
YAY! I finished Potter Series alr(x
Aiseh tiara so pro....
Yong Kai's like freaking funny. I swear.
In the midst of playing soccer he can randomly scream things like;

SPOOKYSPOOKY OI!
PASS ME THE BALL SIOL!
IR OEJRTF O WTFEWJ FTWEOK I!

Hahaha. craaaazzzzyyy.
Etiher ways, we still love him lah.
Idiot.

Lunch with Dol and Fruq and YK and Tas was brilliant!
Except that the aunty gave me BLACK carrot cake instead of WHITE.
I hate black carrot cake. But I hadn't much choice.
I was starving.

Headed off to school.
Went to see if juniors were fine logistically [WTH sia, new adverb. LOL! again, tiara so pro (; ]
Prepared for outreach lessons tomorrow.
I've still got 2 proposals due.
Shitzxzxzxzxzxxzxzxzxzxz

Omg, I'm going loco alr.

Oh and if you're wondering, yes I had Red Bull. and am indulging in Red Bull as I type.

Red Bull give me wings?? NOO, Red Bull give me sugar rush.

~my tummy pain. bleeeaaaahhh.

2009-10-25T18:26:00.003+08:00

I miss Tokyo.

I miss my friends.

If God's willing to let me see Tokyo again, it'll be this December.

Till then, we'll just patiently wait for the results.

Dearest Juniors,

As much as I want us to win, I hope you treasure the bittersweet times we experienced together as well. I've learnt a lot through the course of my final KWN production. I hope you have too. If we don't achieve our goals then bring back the glory soon. 2010 is your year.

Tokyo Pics; http://www.aseanyouth.org/gallery/?dir=Japan-ASEAN%20prog%20-%20JENESYS

2009-10-20T09:18:00.005+08:00

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned, to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way.

At times like this, I wish to cry.

For goodness sake, it's not about us. It's not about our image from top to toe that determines the betterment of fellow schoolmates.
For goodness sake, it's the things like donation drives and successful suggestion schemes and interactive events for students that matters. What exactly goes through our minds when we pledge and take the oath.
For goodness sake.
All we're trying to do, is to simply char that reputation you've left us with. Of which, is a selfish organisation.

I constantly remind myself, it is for nothing but the interest of the school and the welfare of the students.

2009-10-18T16:57:00.003+08:00

Confetti Sprinkles!

( i miss my tresses)

Th atmosphere at home is vibrant with every deci bell of sound amplified at every screams and laughters of lovely cousins. Of course, EOY has ended for me and only me. Elia and th rest have to work thier asses of now.

Depiction of current situation from where I can see;

Mum: Daniel, have you finished Test Paper 1?

Daniel: I think so, Mak Long it's 5 already! Can we take a break

Elia: Do your work!

Mum: Elia, tell me what alibi is

Elia: Proof (confindently)

Mum: Something like that. More like a supporting evidence

Daniel: You older than me also don't know. Eleh Kakak Elia....

ROFL?

Anyways, am going to add on to my Picoult collection. Am contemplating between "Vanishing Act" and "Nineteen Minutes" Behold! for th bookslug has revived! Hoooooraaayys.

Bugis or Ion this Tuesday. I don't know. Movie with e3. Shorts or Meatballs or Love Happens. I don't know I don't know!

Till then, I shall be nice and make your every days(;

p.s. Good luck Daddy for your exams tomorrow. You so need luck because from what you're indulging in now(SLEEPING) I don't think studying has been ever active.

2009-10-12T18:10:00.002+08:00

Bu neng shuo de mi mi

History tomorrow.
Must get A1
Must!
E Math was a little dissapointing but its okay;
I shall do well for Paper 2.
I'd just have to score at least a 53 to get an A
I can do it!
~Do you believe in Magic? In a young girl's heart.

2009-10-10T16:29:00.002+08:00

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery,
I'm sleeping with the gost of you and me♥

I left my phone and keys and wallet all on th same day,
& I wonder how did I ever get so distracted.
I see phantom ships sailing by, yes?
& one of them is mine.

A few more papers to go, I can do it!

2009-09-30T19:03:00.003+08:00

So relic, So remnant, So primitive, So..you

You, an exception.

It's finger counts a way to papers. Th pressure? Th pressure's not scary yet. A miracle? Yes, a miracle! I've been doing Additional Mathematics non-stop. Amazing?Pretty much. I know I know, what's with me and question marks???

Anoyyed? Yes?!
(x

loves,
tiara

2009-09-27T21:30:00.002+08:00

Wake me up, when EOY-s end?
please and thank you

Hiatus Declaration; pretty soon.
Oh wth, it's the last lap for th year, I might as well just end it pretty.

I'm loving textbooks long time(x

Now a days, I groove to Enrique Iglesias.
Textbook material!

I'm going loco, beyond a doubt.
~ baby,take me on a journey

2009-09-21T18:57:00.002+08:00

Salam Aidilfitri

Syawal came so quickly I didn't even feel like it had been a month.

Sesunguhnya aku hanya dapat memohon agar diperkukuhkan iman dan aqidah,
diberikan hidayah dan diampuni dosa-dosa. Ya Allah, temukanlah aku dengan Ramadhan yang akan datang. Bukakanlah ruang buatku menebus segala kesilapanku. Berikanlah aku peluang untuk mendekatkan diri padamu dalam setiap hari-hariku.

2009-09-15T15:38:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Darren Ng Wu Gui.
Haha, no lah.
Ng Zhi Wei Darren(x

Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
Perhaps.

Person you last sent a text to?
Bryan.

What's irritating you right now?
Nothing really.

How many kids do you want?
2 would be nice ;)

What were you doin' at 11pm last night?
Reading! Typical.

What happened at 10:00 am today?
Supposedly Core Geography with Mr Boay but we ended up doing Physics with Mr Tan

How many hours did you sleep last night?
Five!

Does anyone call you baby?
Nope.

Did you hug anyone today?
Not anyone. Anything. My bloated haversack.

Would you get married if you could right now?
No way.

Are you in a good mood?
Averagley pleased, not contented, if you know wth that means.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Not person. People.
Tsk Tsk *shakes head*
Mr Lam and Aziz and lovely juniors.

What are you listening to?
Please don't leave me-Pink

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Ya think? (: (; (x ;D :D xD

Do you wear glasses?
No. *much guilt*
LOL.

Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?
I wish.....

Are you a forgiving person?
Fairly lah. I'm still trying to be a better person.

How is life going for you right now?
Status Quo. Blatant.

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
Yup Yup.

Who was the last person you ate with?
Parents(;

When was the last time you saw your dad?
This morning when my parents sent me to school?

Are you mad about anything?
Not mad. Just a little sad (:

Do you miss anyone?
Yes. My aunt.

What were you doing before this?
Elementary Mathematics! Th new scandal aye?

Do you hate being alone?
Sometimes. I don't like eating alone though.
ROFL.

Do you drink more water or juice?
Water. Isn't my water bottle my trademark?

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
Not really. Okay, no. Haha.

When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
I wish there was a last time but it can never be a last time if it's still breaking now, ain't that so?

Looking forward to something this weekend?
Of course! Raya(x

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
Yesssss, a lot.

Is there someone you will never forget?
I will never forget many..

Where's the guy/girl you love right now?
Like Chek Hui would say it " in my heart"
ROFL

Do you like waking up in the morning to find that you have new texts?
Er, not currently..

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Nocturnal. Nocturnal Hybrid.

Do you like someone right now?
I like a lot of people now lah ^ ^

Can you keep a secret?
You'd have to ask Nurul. Haha.

Are you open with your feelings to people?
I'm transparent so anything's fine!

What are you thinking right now?
Chemistry.

**
A - Age
15

B - Best coffee
Coffee-shop? (i don't drink kopi)

C - Chore I don't like?
Ironing

D - Dog's name
I don't have dogs.

E - Essential start to your day
Clorets?

F - Favorite color
No favourites, Im colourful

G - Gift you love getting
Poooooh Bear~

H - Height
I cannot comprehend this question *blur, very blur*

I - Instruments you play
Spanish Guitar. Heh, just kidding.
I'm not musically inclined =(

J - Job title
Student

K - Kid(s) (Named A to Z respectively.)
I haven't thought of any.

L - Last CD listened to
Errrr....ahhh..hmm...bleeeaah.. I don't remember..

M - Most memorable Christmas Present?
I don't celebrate Christams but presents are sweeeet.

N - Nicknames?
Nurul says "Tikus, Tiaro" The latter is her favourite
I say, Tiiiiiiii. Hahs.

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth
Never.

P - Pet Peeve
Me: "What's a pet peeve?"
Nurul: "How I know, Go Google ah!"
Me: " Ehhh, okay"
I didn't google it. Obvious kan? If not I'd replace the entire conversation with a pet peeve or some shit right.
=.=

Q - Quote from a movie
You so lame.

R - Right or left handed
Right.

S - Siblings
One.

T - Tattoos
No have...

U- Ultimate vacation destination
Caribbean

V- Vegetable you dislike
CARROT. So freaking ORANGE. *pukes*

W - Ways you run late
AH?!

X - X-rays you've had
4.

Y - Yummy food you make
Nasi Goreng.
Perencah Woh Hup, pilihan saya.
WHAT THE HELL. Hahahahahaha.

Z - Zoo favorite
The aquatic animals(;

Okaaay, I'd have to leave now.
Need to go buy JJ's birthday Gift.

Bubbbyes.

2009-09-13T17:47:00.002+08:00

Am so addicted to an annoying Indonesian Song.
But wth, it's catchy.
Hahaha.
& th song's idiotic.
Go search! ; Wali Band-Cari Jodoh

That aside, I've purchased my baju raya.
An achievement, of course!
We're early this year.
Unlike previous years where we waited till 3 days before raya to get them.
Tailoring this year was just an expression.
Of course, there were many many constraints.
To enlighten you further, something called TIME CONSTRAINT(;
Or maybe just pure lazy laaaaah ^ ^

Issues with my baju raya are not spared.
Im th odd one out this year.
Adult size just didn't fit me.
Not tactless huh.
Okay2, I couldn't fit into adult size/=.=
Kids' range was th way to go.
I'm depressed. Trust me I am.
But its okay lah.
It looks pleasent. That's good enough(x

This week shall be hectic I presume.
Oh well, let's just get through with it all smiley like this;
:D

much love,
tiara

2009-09-07T16:08:00.002+08:00

Reflections on the water, I share with you on my blank paper;

I have to make a choice.
I have to decide.
At times like these I desperately wish someone would instruct me.
But what are th odds.
God, help me through this ordeal. Please

2009-09-04T16:51:00.002+08:00

L L L L L L LOLLIPOP L L L L L L L LOLLIPOP
Shawty wanna ?

Guess Guess Guess what we're doing now now now??

Aziz and I are being diligent students.
We're so printing out Syllabus from SEAB.
All th subjects.
Cool kan?!

Haha so smart so smart(x
I promise to study real hard.
Because I want to be so freaking thrilled when I get hold of my results.
Yes? Yes!

In the mean time, I'll be a composed and patient kid.
I'm still figuring life;
steady feet don't fail me now.

2009-09-02T19:04:00.002+08:00

Thank you for your comfort all these while.

Not your fault,at all.

I need a break, just like that.

cause when i start to crumble, you know how to keep me smiling

2009-09-01T15:18:00.003+08:00

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

I finally understood.
Today I fully understand.
Totally unexpected but it's an irony;
I'm the least surprised.

Why?
I don't know too but yes, I'm not taken a back.
I've made up my mind.
Somethings you just have to let free.

Terawih prayers have been more than great help.
For I've learned to be more composed and calm.
I constantly remind myself that life's only momentary.

"Daripada keelukan Islam seorang ialah meninggalkan barang yang tidak berguna kepadanya"

2009-08-31T16:05:00.002+08:00

I want like who then I like lah.
Then?
You got a problem with that?
$%*#&!@

I just refuse to acknowledge your presence.
As simple as that.
Just so you know, I'm still as mad as hell
I'm not near ready to make nice.
dan gu gu

2009-08-30T18:16:00.002+08:00

Not my forte

I'm very tired already.
I really feel that it's just th matter of time before I submit to th ordeal.
& then I wonder what exactly keeps me together all these times.
Is it th ego or is it just pure passiveness.
Screw those sickening toads

Sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuasa..

you can do it,tiara.
though, it seems that deep inside your tears, you still drown either way.

2009-08-27T11:30:00.003+08:00

Piqued.

Ulcers' are bit**ing about in my oral cavity.
No Fair. No Fair.
I want them to get better but what th heck lah, I just refuse to drink Salt Water.

NaCl+H2O(in my oral cavity)= VERY PAIN

Hahaha, somebody help me balance th equation(;
LOL.
ROFL

Okaaay.
I neeeeed to focus now. Th people from South America are coming soon.
I neeeeed to memorise my script.
shitzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzx.

bubbbbbbyyyyeeesssss.

2009-08-24T18:23:00.003+08:00

If life was any hour glass, I'd keep turning back to times I love and only th times I love.

I miss Tokyo.

& my blog song's not Japanese by th way.

haha.

It's Korean(x

No no no, I'm not drooling over boys over flowers.

Certainly not my new craze.

HOWEVER, it's okay to berangan once in a while right.

I mean th show's pretty adorable.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it.

It's so fairy-tale like yet so real.

Hahaha.

Tiara's carried away, so so so far away.

Don't get me wrong, I'm in no way ready to start searching for a Goo Jun Pyou but but but, it's not wrong to start dreaming of one lah huh(x

Im sorry, Im just not ready.

2009-08-22T12:43:00.002+08:00

Goodbye long tresses. Hello short short hair.

i a m d e p r e s s e d.

boy why you so obssesed with me(x

2009-08-21T17:25:00.004+08:00

Rain.

This week has been a great challenge.
Tonnes of bull crap.
Undoubtedly on th verge of crumbling but nonetheless I pulled through;
By myself.
Yes by myself.
've regained much composure and I'm contented.

Okay I'll stop being so optimistic banana now.
Haha.

Common Test was coooolllliiiioooo.
My grades are fine.
I hope parents won't take me out of anything.

I'm a happy kid(x

2009-08-10T12:24:00.003+08:00

feu-de-joie

Finally, Nurulf's on facebook.
Weeeeeee
& finally, Zulfadhli's got a new comp.
Hooorrraaayyss.

Life's a mess.
But it's okay; because life's like that

2009-08-08T14:40:00.005+08:00

First and foremost,

Well done 1st sgt Fairus for leading th Guard of Honour awesomely!
On behalf of the CCA co-ords and CCC, we're proud of you(x
& not forgetting th Guard of Honour contingent too for being so cool and greeeeen.
I bet they loved th limelight huh?!
Last but not least, our fellow CCA LEADERS who did extremely well be it during th parade or on stage.
You guys are awesome!

X Factors,
've got so much to say but I don't know how to say it best.
Let's all have a fruitful term in office anyhows.

Please take good care of yourselves.
See th doctor if you have too.

Speedy Recovery Wishes;
ABDULLAH!
JIA JUN!
ARIVINDD!
AZIZ!
TASNIM!

you leave me breathless;

2009-08-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Mother!

Dad bought Mummy Lee Hwa's Diamond-Destinee Collection.

Jealous...

Diamonds are forever, forever, forever.

Will post pics up soon.

TOMORROW!!!

Tomorrow will be THE day.

I'm so excited.

27th Student Council, finally.

2009-08-05T20:12:00.002+08:00

SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!
SHAWTY SHAWTY SHAWTY SHAWTY!!

Hahahahaha.
Nice right nice right?
During A Math today, Mdm Z showed us th Super Juniors.
& ever since, th song's stucked in my neutrons.
Ahh, I've been nodding and snapping to th beat.
Aiseh th song so nice!

Hahahaha.
Watched th parade rehersal today.
Okay lah not exactly.
Since Farah and Jia Jun were sick, I had to help Faruq out with th CCA Leaders.
So much fun.
ESPECIALLY WITH YY around!
You horny banana!
Fairus was coooooooollllliiioooo.
JealousJealous!
I wish I could be th Parade Commander.
$^%$#!@#

Basketball conveyer tmr!
Skip lessons.
Yes Yes Yes!!
Down for emcee(;
Hoooorraaaayyy meeee!
But I'll have to come back for LCD rehersal though ^.^
Oh, tomorrow will be a much better day!

loves,
ti

2009-08-04T18:21:00.002+08:00

You once believed in me

Thank you Nurul! For th blogskin of course(;
Much loves.
& I look so retarded.
LOL.

Life's a roller coaster.
& now, well now it's accelerating.
So much fun.
Darn it.

2009-08-02T20:42:00.004+08:00

Star Strucked.
You are a major loser.
*PUKES*

Ive been tagged by Aqil!

1. Are you single or attached?

Answer : Sweetly Single

2.Do you have a person you like?

Answer : Yes yes

3. What is the name of the person that you're in love with?

Answer : Taufik Batisah

4. if the person you love and your mum dropped into the sea,who will you save?

Answer : My mum can swim(;

5.Have you ever hugged someone before?

Answer : Yup yup

6. Do you love your parents?

Answer : A lot

7.Will you hug the one you love?

Answer : Yes I will

8.Are you willing to do anything for your boyfriend/girlfriend?

Answer : Not if it goes against my principles. I am a girl with principles!

9.Are you jealous now?

Answer : Yes(:

Who is the last person that messaged you?

Answer :Nurul

Who is your clique?

Answer : I belong to many!

eg; Nutiazizulfa, Twilight elite team(wtf!), X Factors etc etc

12.Do you want babies in future?

Answer : Yes(; Babies are blissful

13.Do you prefer Macdonald,KFC,Long John Sliver,Burger King or coffee shop?

Answer : No preferences, they ALL make me fat =.=

14.Do you sniff glue?

Answer : Nope, Gross.

15.Do you smoke?

Answer : Smokers disgust me. Oh and if I've stopped talking to you, that's cause you smoke and you disgust me a whole lot. *puking puking puked* (x

16.If your boyfriend/girlfriend is a 2-timer,what will you do?

Answer : 2 time him back?

17. Which CCA are you in now?

Answer : MEDIAWORKS. lovesloves.

18.If you're rich, what'll you do?

Answer : Travel around th world with somebody I love

19.If the one you're in love with, held your hand, what'll you do?

Answer: Tell him I'm not ready. Hahahaha. Spoiler!

20. If the one you love, reject you, what'll you do?

Answer : Acceptance is blissful, so is a waving middle finger *winks*

21.What is your favourite cartoon character/s?

Answer : Winnie Th Pooh Bear

22.Friendship or Love?

Answer : Friendship, for now.

23.Cookie monster or Elmo?

Answer : Elmo. La La La La La La La La Elmo's World!

24.do you use laptop or computer?

Answer : BOTH. Now, comp(x

25.Do you like lollipop?

Answer : Yes! Chuppa Chops, th way to go!

26.Do you have a diary?

Answer : Like a virtual one or a real one? I have both anyhows.

27.There's an admirer of yours and he won't die heart, what'll you do?

Answer :I cannot comprehend th question sia. Don't understand. Enlighten me, somebody!

28.If you quarrel with your boyfriend/girlfriend and he/she wants to break, what'll you do?Answer : Tell him to EFFFF-OHH then give him th sweeeeetest smile(x

29. Are you blur?

Answer : Noooooooo

30.If you can have your hair dyed, what colour do you want it to be?

Answer : Chestnut! But I don't want to dye my hair ^ ^

31. Who is the last person you chatted in your MSN?

Answer : Ong Loo Xin!! Ms Shhhhh... Hehs

32.How many boys/girls have you beaten before?

Answer : Never beat before lah.

33.If your boyfriend/girlfriend don't love you anymore, what'll you do?

Answer : Exactly what Im doing now. I don't know what Im doing now. Ehhhh, blogging? LOL. What the hell. tiara tiara *shakes head*

34. What school are you in?

Answer : Jurong Secondary School .

35. Tag 10 besties or friends to do this quiz:

1.Abdullah

2.Nurulf

3.Loo Xin

4.Wei En

5.Shu Hui

6.Zulfadhli

7.Corene

8.Arivindd

9.Zaki

10.You can do it, if you want to!

2009-07-29T18:38:00.003+08:00

Pride.

School's fun.

I enjoy Additional Mathematics.

Bucket loads of fun.

Reeeaaalllyyy.

My new best friends;

Secant

Cosecant

Cotangent

Sine

Cosine

Tangent

Very lame. Anyway, I'm so happy these days! My duties have become exceptionally exciting.

I so cannot wait for LCD next week! Hooorraaayy us! Finalllyyy.

Get well soon Bibik,

our prayers are with you.

tiara

2009-07-28T16:18:00.002+08:00

& just so you know, I so don't need it from you.
Don't freaking talk to me about what I should and shouldn't do.
'Cause at th end of th day, it's not as if you freaking care.
To think you still can count yourself a friend.
Well, you can forget about that.

2009-07-26T17:06:00.002+08:00

Rainbows.

Parents treated cousins to watch th Rehersal yesterday. Sadly, this year we're not going for th Preview let alone actual day. We've had our share of fun for th past so many years so we're at rest this year. Parents decided that it was only beneficial to bring my little cousins along. Besides, it's educational and at th end of th day, we could all see th patriotism in them. Way to go kidos!

I won't post pics up yet. Don't want to spoil your fun but NDP 09's really awesome. It was much fun. I enjoyed th rehersal. Adrian was so so cool!

Finished P.S. I love you already. My fingers are itching to get hold of another book. Recommend me something please (x

much love,
ti

2009-07-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare;
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

Today was lovely.
Millions and trillions of thank you-s
Aziz&Arivindd&Faruq&Abdullah.
You guys made my day.
We shall have more of such gatherings.
I swear my sides hurt when I think of th stupid jokes.
Mygoodness.
Abdullah! Can I have yo numbba? Can I have it? Can I geddit?
LOLNESS!

OkayOkay, tmr will be fun I think.
CCA!
I love Mediaworks.
Mediaworks Mediaworks
WorK Work Work!
Heh.

Dating YiongCS tomorrow,
P.S. I'm not jealous(x

When raindrops taste like lemondrops and gumdrops

2009-07-21T16:40:00.002+08:00

P.S. I love you

Time to change blog song!
Everybody kinda gets it that it's a mad world we're living in.
& so I don't know why but somehow somehow somehow I keep putting songs about th world on display.
Th song's dope anywaaays.
I've got good taste and you cannot deny that (x

Have been doing duty diligently. Vair goooooood.
Hoooorrraaayyy meee~

And and and I've been practising self motivation.
How how how?
By catching a few glimpses of love.
Sweeetness ^ ^

24 down, 26 more chapters to go.
I love reading P.S. I love you
I love watching P.S. I love you
I love P.S. I love you
I love P.S. I Love you
P.S. I Love You
I Love you.

*and this is where th gaspings come about*

Hahahahaha...
much love,
ti(x